Homeschooling has been on the back burner during the holidays. Not that I ever hear any complaints. I recently asked my son if he wanted to go back to high school. This past fall he attended an accelerated high school program, but, like many of his fellow former homeschoolers, he wasn’t there for long.
In my five years of homeschooling up till then, I had seen many perfectly capable homeschool graduates. So, when it came to homeschooling high school, only the paperwork worried me. But my husband, like many homeschool dads, was skeptical. Homeschooling through middle school was fine and good, but high school was another thing entirely.
I should not have been surprised when, about half way through my son’s eighth grade year, his father suddenly announced that he would be attending a “real” high school in the fall. He was firm on this issue. My protests were in vain.
So, I dropped everything. I jumped through hoops, going on school visits, arranging and paying for testing, filling out forms (both necessary and unnecessary), documenting his middle school years ad nauseum: All of this to prove (to the equally skeptical school authorities) that he was indeed worthy of their accelerated program.
It was exhausting. But when he finally was accepted, it was a kind of vindication of all those long years spent homeschooling. Clearly a job well done.
Both my husband and I enjoyed a moment of pride, although for different reasons. Little did we know how short-lived that moment would be.
Six weeks into the school year, my son was already pleading to be homeschooled again. He and I had a number of conversations to figure out what it was that he found so unbearable.
Reasons Why I Want to Leave High School and Homeschool Again:
Stress and Worry:
- Everything is hard.
- I feel like everyone else is learning faster, writing quicker and already knows more.
- I feel overwhelmed, and dread what is coming next.
- High school is very intense, with an insane working pace.
- I end up tired and exhausted and can’t pick up on, or understand, what the teachers are saying.
- I feel confused all the time.
- I feel so much stress about turning in homework.
- So much is on my shoulders that is not my job to worry about in homeschool.
- I am pressured into doing things that there is no need for in homeschool, like keeping track of things, and doing every single problem, even though you understand the concept or procedure already.
- In six weeks I have not yet made a single friend.
Managing My Materials and Time:
- I spend every waking hour outside of school doing homework.
- I can’t keep track of my assignments. There is no time to write them down.
- I get no sleep because school starts very early and I do homework till very late.
- I eat nothing for breakfast because I’m in a hurry to get to the bus.
- I have to absorb a lot in a short period.
- Its’s too crowded in the halls and lunchroom.
- About 24-30 people are in each class with me.
- It is very noisy.
- I don’t like the teachers. (I think this comment has less to do with personal dislike than with the lack of warmth and the distance teachers tend to maintain in high school, in their effort to be fair to everyone and show no favoritism.)
- The teachers don’t seem to be teaching: they just show videos and give out homework.
- If you don’t turn in homework there is no mercy.
- The teachers skip around a lot in the books, so it’s not predictable.
- Kids in class show disrespect for the teachers and get away with it.
It was confusing and hurtful to hear that he felt left behind, confused and alone. I knew from testing and just watching him learn that he had already covered material above and beyond his grade level.
The problem was not that his education was inadequate, but that it was not standardized. He had learned everything that the other kids had, just not at the same time, or in the same order. On top of that, he didn’t know any of the routines that eat up your time: getting your books out, using your locker, finding your way to class, standing in line for lunch etc. Being out of step in these ways made him feel like he didn’t belong.
Meanwhile, the other kids plainly could write and take notes by hand much quicker than he could. We hardly ever wrote in our homeschool without using a key board. Had the tests and assignments been typed, he would have had no problem.
After pleading for days, my son finally had the opportunity to present the list to his dad, over pizza.
One by one he counted them off. He addressed every objection. He showed his dad that he was truly suffering, and suffering needlessly. There was another way.
Confronted by this list of grievances, sincerely expressed, my husband was touched. He caved. It moved him to a quality rare in public school: Mercy.
He insisted on one caveat. We must get out there and do things with other kids. My husband was worried, not about any lack of academic rigor, but about the boy becoming a hermit. He remembered high school loneliness and did not want to visit that particular pain upon his kids.
Having let my son do most of the arguing, I had to bite my tongue at this point. Had my husband just brought up the tired argument that homeschoolers suffer from a lack of socialization? Was this not the number one myth circulated about homeschoolers, and the one with the least merit?
Deep breath. We needed to accept these terms, no matter how misguided his reasons for insisting upon them might be.
I have never seen my son so happy. A great weight had been lifted off his shoulders. He was giggling to himself, crying tears of joy the rest of the evening.
And even now, six months later, when I ask him, “Do you want to go back to high school, now, honey?”
“No way!” He doesn’t even skip a beat.
Nice to hear Camie! I think high school is a season when we are all in need of much encouragement! And congrats on your daughters! I have two who went thru public school before the thought of homeschooling even crossed my horizon. They make me proud daily. Enjoyed your post on what you wish others knew about homeschooling!
My husband was skeptical of homeschooling high school at first, too, but he also feels the same way I do about our public school system so putting our kids back in wasn’t even a consideration. We’ve now graduated two daughters and they both were accepted to different universities with their transcripts and ACT scores. They’re doing great! Homeschooling through high school actually gave them some advantages for college such as schooling on their own time schedule and being comfortable taking online classes when the sit-in classes are full.